I started this in December. I posted twice and stopped. It is now July. And so much has happened since I last posted. In January I started talking to Shaun. He asked me to marry him, and he moved here. He was here for 6 weeks then left to go back to Iowa for a job because he couldn't find one here. The next day he started getting calls about a job here. (figures, huh?) He said he was coming back a few days later because he had nowhere to stay there... So I sent him some money to come back with. He never showed up. Then his phone was shut off, his yahoo id's deleted, and I haven't heard from him since April 2nd. I've been so depressed that I don't know what to do. I miss him like crazy. Honestly, I don't think I've ever loved anyone like I loved him. I'm barely ready to even start dating again and it's been over 3 months! It's going to be extremely hard to trust guys now. I don't know if I can do it.